Maybe its just the coffee stirring in me or maybe..its the sunshine pouring in, but I had to use my
extra time to share the latest about our church planting adventures; We are super duper close to having our building. And what’s most amazing is that we didn’t want the one we are about to accept as ours. I guess I shouldn’t say it is ours, because it currently is still in “maybe” mode, but we are, in fact. super- duper close.
What’s most interesting about this building will come in an exciting ending paragraph, but i”ll share from my heart how we got this place. We found an AWESOME building. It’s AWESOME because that’s Christianized for really really great building. We have an old department store right smack in the middle of town vacant and ready for a cool church to come along and flip it. But with a huge building comes a huge price. And once the owner realized we have money to put into a crazy church, he kept inflating that price. So, although we wanted it, God apparently didn’t want us to have the most obvious, expected place for our building. He wanted us to keep everyone guessing where in the world will the Open door church be…Where in the world will the new church be?
So..with this excitement, I must pause and think about all that is going on in my life right now. I feel a breeze in the air and natural light through my windows, it brings such peace, such joy to my heart. I know that even when things are not easy, God is there. HE is beside me. The last few days have been rough, I couldn’t’ see past my mistakes at work. I couldn’t have enough phone calls with school to make the pieces come together quick enough. I just could not secure plans for our family to be taken care of in the midst of this busy season in life. Then God, smiled on me and did NOT fix the problems. He just opened me up to seeing things differently. He had words of encouragement through my husband that life doesn’t have to move to feel peace. God gave me hope as things began to move that he was there and I’m so grateful for that. I’m praying for that continued peace to be with me. I’m not begging for perfection anymore, but rather his sustained love and presence with me through it all.
I believe that this stress that is on my family right now is not coenseducne for our current adventure in church planting. We know the enemy is always sneaking around trying to keep us distracted, pulled away from his plan. I must be reminded of that constantly that he is the ADD in church planning. He put the pressure to really know is this the plan. But God gives so much blessing when we continue to fight for his plan.
The days following my husband being fired from our church home,we drove around looking at options for a new church in the area. I calmly prayed for strength to help him stay positive, even though I thought it was just merely an overwhelmed reaction to the fact that less than 24 hours and he had lost his job, security, any idea of insurance for our family, it was all gone. So during this time, I let him and his crazy church ideas flow out of him with a smile on my face and pretend supportive, “Go for it honey!”. I remember pulling up to school about a block from my house and praying in the front of the building. “This would be the area where the VIP or new people would park. ‘Sure Honey”. I had no idea that we were looking at the actual church plant we are pursuing right now.
I imagine what God was doing in that moment right then. Was he laughing a big old santa claus grandpap laugh and clapping his hands? was he dancing and smiling with tears in his eyes?
It’s so surreal at times what we are in, we don’t even know how to express this feeling. It’s like nothing I’ve ever felt before. It’s so amazing and yet so scary that we have these confirmations, that I don’t know how to say how I feel, yet I don’t want to lose this feeling either.
In this very moment, i realize this was a prayer answered, in my lost depressive state, I’ve been asking for God to show me that it is all coming together and here I am. I recognize that he is just trying to show me how to trust him. I know that even if I don’t know why or how or what is to come, he is there. He is here. He was there. He’ll be there.